I promised I would...

...keep things completely honest with my readers. Sooo, in doing so, I must confess that I have gained 3 pounds over this holiday season!! Yes, (with my head hung down), I may have indulged a bit too much at Panera since it opened in my town! I believe consuming so much of their tasty bread was my problem.

You have to understand my obsession with this place.  I L O V E Panera! I don't have to worry much about what I choose to eat from there because they use mostly all natural ingredients and they have many more options for me. The thing is, that I ate there for about 2 weeks straight! In my defense, I only got the soup and half sandwich. And I enjoyed every bite of the half sandwich too!  I would eat the soup for say lunch and then eat half of the half of sandwich for dinner. A few times I had a pastry with it that I would eat for "dessert" much later in the day (I'm sure this was a bad decision as well). Which, I'm sure did not help my situation. I also have not worked out much at all in the last few weeks.

I got consumed with working and shopping and all the events we had over the last couple of weeks too. I am not making excuses for myself, just explaining what happened. I also wanted to let you all know that just because I had weight loss surgery, it does not mean that I don't struggle with the same food addictions/desires as anyone else. I did, however, make better choices than I would have before the surgery. I did not over eat, like I would have normally done before the surgery also. I know now when to back away from the plate. And I have guilt like no other now when I even think about something that I should not have. Just the thought of it makes me feel so bad, that it deters me from eating things like chocolate candy and cakes and pies and all.

It was all I could do not to have some of my grandmothers sweet potato pie and lemon cake. There was food EVERYWHERE this holiday season. Even at work, people would bring food and snacks in to say thank you, and it was cookies, and cakes and sweets galore!! O.M.GOSH!! The fear of sugar kept me away from it.

Whew! With all that said, it is time for me to tighten up and get back to the discipline that I know I have within me! I am committed to myself! I am determined not to go back to the unhealthy habits I had before. It is easy to fall. It is easy for someone to talk about you when you fall. But they don't know what to do with you when you continue to GET UP and keep moving toward your goal! Be that one to GET BACK UP and keep it moving!

Later dolls...