Getting back to normal

Let me just start with as of today, I am 23lbs down!! (cause for celebration). It is an amazing feeling to get onto the scale and see the numbers going down; as opposed to the way they used to go....up, up and away!!! I lost 12lbs the first week of surgery. By the second week I had lost 8lbs more. And, the lbs just keep falling off. Its hard to believe that they are just melting away like that; especially since it took me years to pack em on!

I started back to work on Monday. Things went well. Others can notice a change in by body immediately.  They say my face is slimmer, my clothes are slightly bigger. Thats wonderful news. However, I can not really tell the difference as of yet.  They say it takes awhile for YOU to notice the change in YOU.


I am glad I went ahead with the surgery.  It is only a tool in the weight loss battle that rages on in my life. I still want to eat everything in sight, mearly for the fact that I know I can not have it. I have discovered that food is really an addiction.  Much like drugs and anything else you can be addicted to. I think about food all day long. Before the surgery, it was what do i want to eat for the next meal....Since the surgery, its what can i have for the next meal. I have to plan my meals out everyday. Measure what I take in, as to not damage my new "pouch".


I feel everything that goes into my mouth. Even sips of water, when they hit my pouch. I have this incredible craving for a taco....you never miss the well til the water runs dry.  Even so, I know this is for the best. I can say proudly, that I no longer have to take blood pressure meds!! (woo hoo)

Recovery is energy consuming! I have been tired since I left the hospital. Im waiting for this to go away. I had minimal pain since I left the hospital, and I'm glad about that because it could of been way worse!

Learning to deal with people eating foods around me that I can't have has been an experience. I have to do positive reinforcement thoughts constantly.  I want what they are eating and enjoying....but I say to myself....self, you can do this! you are doing this for your health! Then self gets back in line (that is until the next meal is eaten in front of me)

It really is a mind thing as well as physical changes. The mind is a powerful thing. I have to remember that in a few months, I will look completely different and will be healthier and happier; and have to think if that TACO is really worth the setback it could cause me.

So, now I will enjoy my vanilla bean protein drink and look forward to my treat (sugar free jello) later on today!